Chasing Hue and Finding Me

The Day Hue Went Away

Hmmmmm

Well hey, so much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true for me there's only you
Been wishing you well since the day
The day you went away

Hmmmmm tse

I remember date and time
No longer landering at each other there were smiley tears on our faces
And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know I guess I really really know

Well hey, so much I need to say
Been happy since the day
The day you became happiest
Just remember for me there's only Hue

Happy Birthday 🎂

THAMD #30 ∞ Exit Point

Dear ∞ Hue,

Did you know that every exit is an entry to somewhere else? In our case, my exit is your entry to your happiness. And for that, I'm the happiest for you.

If ever you're wondering why I need to keep distance and rush out the door, tbh I wonder too. I can just be there to cheer you on and be updated in everything that way I don't even have to miss you, miss us but yeah tse I choose not to, for selfish and selfless reasons.

So there you are asking, what are those reasons?

Selfish ~ I know my place and I know very well things and prios will change. Not that I wanna complain but this is me saving myself from missing our 24/7 convo and you getting cranky for always waiting for me to give you time even the fact that I messaged 5 mins ago you'd still complain and feel neglected HAHAHAHA and I know you'll be busy from now on so I'll miss that and a lot.

Selfless ~ Because I know this sudden change is super important to you. It's like life is giving back your happiness. I just really hope it'll last this time. And even you insist that it's okay we know it'll be different than how we used to. So to be fair to you (and unfair to me HAHAHAHA) all I wanted right now is for you to savour every happy moments and not worry about me. I want you to give ALL your time and FULL attention to your happiness so don't get mad and say idc because ical okay? Believe me I'll really miss you big time everyday, but just knowing your heart is happy once again is enough for me to move on with life without you again.

Till next time

..maybe

Always ∞ Me

The Hue that got Me

They say, "Everyone becomes a poet when their hearts are goddamn breaking.."

And so she wondered if her heart ever stopped breaking coz it felt she had always been like a poet. And if only she could write all the rawness of her emotions lately..maybe, just maybe, But no, she chose not to, of all the other things there are these few that is better kept in the deepest part of her heart.

Somebody left this heart in the cold.. nobody to hold on.

*insert-tellmewhereithurtssong-by-MYMP"

Wattages

Coz srsly, what is she so afraid of?

So what? if she smiles to hide the pain

So what? if she loves someone unsure of her

So what? if she wasn't enough for someone to be contented with only her

So what? if she wasn't worth it for anybody to keep her

So what? if she wasn't appreciated at all

So what? if she isn't pretty

So what? if she cares too much about everything around her

So what? if she gets replaced by someone else so easily

So what? if she is hard to love and easy to leave

So what? if she feels scared of losing those who matter to her the most

So what? if she gets her heart broken over and over again

So what? if she isn't noticed and always ignored

So what? if she remembers and they all forgot her

So what? if she is gone

So what? if no one stays

So what? if she seem alone, all her life

SO WHAAAAAT?? if it scares her so much

...that it was all too much for her to bear.

Can't she be anything to you?

Too Much Hues

Sometimes, we are too focused on someone that we tend to overlook those who are more deserving of our attention.

Sometimes, it's all too much of you.

Maybe it's time to look around.

But still..
none of them could be you.

Sneaky Feels

Some feelings just dont go away.

Even when it is covered by another one. It's just like wrapping yourself in a dozen of blankets when its cold.

Isn't it?