You gave me so much to remember i choose not to forget. Is it even normal?
Always ∞ Me
THAMD #29 ∞ Tse
Dear ∞ Hue,
You gave me so much to remember i choose not to forget. Is it even normal?
Always ∞ Me
You gave me so much to remember i choose not to forget. Is it even normal?
Always ∞ Me
Jego
I automatically remember you
I wonder what if it's yours
Will you recognize me
Even from a distance
right through the tinted window?
Even from a distance
right through the tinted window?
More like a thousand times i imagined
Continuously playing on my cassette mind
The things we could have done together
The moments we should have created
Our forever and happily ever after
Why...why it lasted so soon?
I'm pretty scolding myself
Each time i look for you in every crowd
Each time i look for you in every crowd
With hopes i'd bump into you and awkwardly say "hi..please don't say goodbye again..."
Its crazy and weird.
How old memories can still have the ability to cut us open and put plenty onions in our eyes...
i terribly miss you.
Still Her Hue
She lie down on her bed as she stared blankly at the ceiling while thoughts invaded her cluttered mind. Remembering how it all started and how it all ended in utter dismay. She can't clearly understand why suddenly it turned out that way. Lost in her thoughts as the rain pours terribly loud over the roof and such deafeaning roar of thunder follows by. There may be a typhoon coming but it couldn't be any more dreadful than her bursting emotional storm. Just then a familiar cold feeling crept inside her fragile body. The icy chill of the night made her tremble in sadness as she pulled her blanket over her head, trying to lie down still but she can't help but to turn from one side to the other consecutively for a couple of minutes. The absolute darkness made her shiver and a little bit uncomfortable. It reminded her so much of the void space in her heart. She hugs her pillow a little bit more closer to her chest. Wanting to hide the hollowness in her heart but she knows no matter how she covers it, it's still, always have been empty.
She was resentfully still for a moment. Thinking that forever might have been near enough to reach or did she just thought it was. She was too blinded with deep affection that she didn't notice if there was any warning signs at all; or so she just recognized some of it after that ill-fated day. She closes her eyes and try not to think of him. She just can't. Just by the thought of his name made her heart beats fast. The sweet old memories compiled in the deep cavern of her mind started to break out. She wonders about him. How he's doing, who's he's with and that he's probably not even thinking of her anymore. How he has easily forgotten all about her. She can't help but to feel dejected. Why suddenly, she felt less. A little less worthy to keep, a little less pretty to adore, a little less confident to stand out, a little less of a woman to love, a little less dead to be alive. She knows she shouldn't feel that way but at this moment that's exactly how she feels. Slowly, teardrops formed on her right eye while another is rushing past the other one and all of it was uncontrollably flowing.
She started to cry silently underneath the blanket that shielded her from her own weakness. She quivers trying to be as quiet as she still attempts to convince herself that she is totally fine. Holding her broken pieces tightly together so it won't shatter. Yet she failed. She can't fight the urge to collapse. She knows she's been hurting and concealing the pain inside her for so long. That's when she let it all out and burst into extreme tears, wetting her pillow endlessly. Catching her breath in between sobs, she felt more exhausted with all her crying than all the work she had been doing everyday to keep herself busy.
She shuts her eyes tightly closed. Not wanting to cry anymore. Not wanting to feel anything. It hurts her throat to wail. She could no longer hear her tiny voice. Her eyes swollen in unpleasant red hues. Every part of her is inflicted in severe pain. Still, stubborn tears sneak out and freely run down through her face. Her heart becomes more heavier and heavier than it seems. It won't stop. Why does it still hurts so much? She mutters to herself. All she ever wanted was to stop her heart from continously breaking....
but it won't.
She was resentfully still for a moment. Thinking that forever might have been near enough to reach or did she just thought it was. She was too blinded with deep affection that she didn't notice if there was any warning signs at all; or so she just recognized some of it after that ill-fated day. She closes her eyes and try not to think of him. She just can't. Just by the thought of his name made her heart beats fast. The sweet old memories compiled in the deep cavern of her mind started to break out. She wonders about him. How he's doing, who's he's with and that he's probably not even thinking of her anymore. How he has easily forgotten all about her. She can't help but to feel dejected. Why suddenly, she felt less. A little less worthy to keep, a little less pretty to adore, a little less confident to stand out, a little less of a woman to love, a little less dead to be alive. She knows she shouldn't feel that way but at this moment that's exactly how she feels. Slowly, teardrops formed on her right eye while another is rushing past the other one and all of it was uncontrollably flowing.
She started to cry silently underneath the blanket that shielded her from her own weakness. She quivers trying to be as quiet as she still attempts to convince herself that she is totally fine. Holding her broken pieces tightly together so it won't shatter. Yet she failed. She can't fight the urge to collapse. She knows she's been hurting and concealing the pain inside her for so long. That's when she let it all out and burst into extreme tears, wetting her pillow endlessly. Catching her breath in between sobs, she felt more exhausted with all her crying than all the work she had been doing everyday to keep herself busy.
She shuts her eyes tightly closed. Not wanting to cry anymore. Not wanting to feel anything. It hurts her throat to wail. She could no longer hear her tiny voice. Her eyes swollen in unpleasant red hues. Every part of her is inflicted in severe pain. Still, stubborn tears sneak out and freely run down through her face. Her heart becomes more heavier and heavier than it seems. It won't stop. Why does it still hurts so much? She mutters to herself. All she ever wanted was to stop her heart from continously breaking....
but it won't.
Unloving HI
Feelings unshared.
Forever denied.
"Hi" is shortest (actually dangerous) word that can change your life..or affect you in the most surprising way you never thought you'd be. Can you imagine how many "hi's" are exchanged from two or more people each moment everyday? Some get along well together, most of them, maybe, are just passersby in one's existence. They don't need to care, do they? Anyway, the only thing i hate about "hi" is that it can turn into a "goodbye" in a blink of an eye that neither of you and the other person had anticipated.
711
Once upon a time...
in the city of dreams,
there was a girl who loves sneakers and bear.
How could she possibly forget ?
But some stories are too special to share so she'll rather end it with...
"They end up happily-never-after."
Meow Trap
Was it me? Because maybe my eyes are too big for you or my humor is making you so sick that you can't even laugh at it.
Or was it you? Because maybe, in a sudden heartbeat, you realized I wasn't attractive at all. That you just got confused with "like" as "love", that you assumed your feelings can turn into something deeper and long lasting, you tried... but it didn't.
So there, the aftermath of this ruptured sweet connection had me devastated. I dont know why did i ever let myself fall for someone who, right in the middle, ended up unsure.
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